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Jun. 17th, 2008 @ 11:45 am (no subject)
I hate that everything you say is a lie.
But what I hate more is that I believed every word of it.
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Jun. 16th, 2008 @ 04:34 pm (no subject)
I cannot believe you are seriously doing this.
I thought you were better than that.


Whatever.
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Jun. 13th, 2008 @ 11:18 am (no subject)
LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!
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Jun. 11th, 2008 @ 11:29 am (no subject)
That really hurts my feelings.
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Jun. 10th, 2008 @ 10:48 am (no subject)
I have a lot to say.

But the words wont form outside of my head.
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Jun. 3rd, 2008 @ 03:17 pm (no subject)
I feel sick. And I feel dirty.





It feels like you took my innocence and now I just feel lost.

All I can do is cry and then pretend it never happened, but it's too hard when it keeps playing through my head and seeming so real.

Fuck this. I'm not letting you of all people defeat me and my self worth.

FUCK YOU. I really hate you for this. I really do.
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May. 27th, 2008 @ 11:09 am Justice - Stress
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May. 22nd, 2008 @ 04:32 pm (no subject)
Today was my last day of school.
I never have to go back to Norman High.

I can't even believe this is real.
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May. 20th, 2008 @ 07:25 am (no subject)
I graduate high school on friday.

HOLY SHIT.
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May. 17th, 2008 @ 09:35 pm (no subject)
I would never ask that of you, idiot.
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May. 7th, 2008 @ 07:46 am (no subject)
I hurt inside.
I really need a doctor.
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Apr. 25th, 2008 @ 10:34 pm (no subject)
I don't know how I feel.
But I know it's not right.

"There was a girl who talked to geese. She understood them and they her. One day she looked into a crystal stream and saw in its bed a diamond. She picked it up and placed it in her hair. As she did so she turned into a geese. It was then revealed that the other geese she magically had understood, were once human like her."
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Apr. 9th, 2008 @ 08:12 am (no subject)
I think I'm crazy.


Ah, catch 22.
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Apr. 5th, 2008 @ 06:10 pm (no subject)
The thing is, above all else, I thought you were my friend.
But I guess not. You don't even know how to help anymore.



It'd be really great if you didn't make everything about you and about your problems. Sometimes it'd be really great to talk to someone about things instead of keeping it all built up inside myself and then I end up having a breakdown. Like always.
But whatever.
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Apr. 5th, 2008 @ 05:14 pm Lucy in the sky with diamonds.
Picture yourself in a boat on a river,
with tangerine trees and marmalade skies.
Somebody calls you, you answer quite slowly,
a girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

Cellophane flowers of yellow and green,
towering over your head.
Look for the girl with the sun in her eyes,
and she's gone.


Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Ah... Ah...


Follow her down to a bridge by a fountain,
where rocking horse people eat marshmallow pies.
Everyone smiles as you drift past the flowers,
that grow so incredibly high.
Newspaper taxis appear on the shore,
waiting to take you away.
Climb in the back with your head in the clouds,
and you're gone.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Ah... Ah...

Picture yourself on a train in a station,
with plasticine porters with looking glass ties.
Suddenly someone is there at the turnstile,
the girl with kaleidoscope eyes.

Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Lucy in the sky with diamonds
Ah... Ah...
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Mar. 14th, 2008 @ 05:42 pm (no subject)
Burn your life down.
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Mar. 4th, 2008 @ 07:33 am (no subject)
Am I making something worthwhile out of this place?
Am I making something worthwhile out of this chase?
I am displaced.
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Feb. 9th, 2008 @ 01:50 pm (no subject)
Pirate skulls and bones.
Sticks and stones and weed and bongs.
Running when we hit 'em.
Lethal poison through their system.
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Jan. 29th, 2008 @ 07:48 am Okay I Believe You, But My Tommy Gun Don't.
I am heaven sent.
Don't you dare forget.

I am all you've ever wanted,
what all the other boys all promised.
Sorry I told.
I just needed you to know.
I think in decimals and dollars.
I am the cause to all your problems.
Shelter from cold.
We are never alone.
Coordinate brain and mouth.
Then ask me what it's like to have myself so figured out.
I wish I knew.

I hope this song starts a craze.
The kind of song that ignites the airwaves.
The kind of song that makes people glad to be where they are,
with whoever they're there with.
This is war.

Every line is about who I don't wanna write about anymore.
I hope you come down with something
they can't diagnose, don't have the cure for
holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it's so hard to have someone to love.
And keeping quiet is hard.
Cause you can't keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
(at least pretend you didn't want to get caught)
We're consentrated on falling apart.
We were contenders, now throwing the fights.
I just want to believe...I just want to believe..I just want to believe.. in us.
Oh, we're so controversial.
We are entirely smooth.
We admit to the truth.
We are the best at what we do.
And these are the words you wish you wrote down.
This is the way you wish your voice sounds, handsome and smart.
Ooh, my tongue's the only muscle on my body
that works harder than my heart.
And it's all from watching t.v.
And from speeding up my breathing.
Wouldn't stop if I could.
Oh, it hurts to be this good.
You're holding on to your grudge.
Oh, it hurts to always have to be honest with the one that you love.
Oh, so let it go.

This is the grace only we can bestow.
This is the price you pay for loss of control.
This is the break in the bend.
This is the closest of calls.
This is the reason you're alone.
This is the rise and fall.
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Jan. 28th, 2008 @ 05:40 pm Everyone-
"I've got an icebox where my heart used to be."



From now on, fuck everyone. I'm not sharing anything with anyone anymore. I'm not going to hang out with anyone anymore. I'm sick of catching shit for living my life. I'm tired of gossip queens with nothing better to do. I'm sick of getting stabbed in the back by people who I thought were my friends.

Don't expect sympathy from me ever again. I'm done. I'm going to be the biggest cold-hearted bitch in the entire world.

Thank you for this. Thank you for ruining friendships for me because of your selfish tendencies.

Whatever. Fuck it. I'm done.
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